Counter-Strike!!!

Hello everyone! A post at last! Hahaha.. Well this post isn't really about Counter-Strike.. I just feel like putting "Counter-Strike" in the title. Enjoy, as you laugh at the corniness of the post while reading the freaking thing. Islip nakooooo!

Have you ever been in a situation wherein you don’t know what to believe anymore? Sucks doesn’t it? What sucks more is that the “answers” that you ought to believe keep haunting you. They do not have specific “haunting” schedules. They just pop up when you take exams, when you study, before you sleep, even when you use the bathroom!

You’re probably wondering why the above “intro” is like that. You see, I’m kind of experiencing that right now. I couldn’t understand what I’m feeling. I want to cry, scream… damn! I just couldn’t understand why “new” SUCKING things come up everytime I feel that things are ok. Like when I feel that things are going on just fine, I suddenly discover stuff that would lead to things not being ok. I try to find answers. I get sort of positive ones. I believe them and I get hopes of making things ok again. I feel so light, like sv_gravity is zero. Then some time later I learn something, and suddenly things get crazy, and sv_gravity changes back to 800 and I fall from a really great height.

I don’t know! I just feel like I don't want to believe in anything anymore. When things are really bad, and I believe that they would never be ok, things suddenly feel right. But when I start believing that the things are fine, things suddenly become the exact opposite! *Sigh.

Anyways I’m sorry for bringing this thing up. I know that this is supposed to be a HAPPY blog, that I am a HAPPY person… but believe me, things will not always be HAPPY when you start LOVING. And that’s what sucks most… the sweetest thing that life could offer is also the very thing that could bring great sadness.

Hello!

In a short while, I'll be watching Judas in Studio 23. And while I'm watching maybe I'd drink milk and eat some bread... Anyways after that I'm gonna put a new post....





Or not...





Well it depends... If I will not feel sleepy then...





I'll still have to think about it! :P

Dinner At the Money Table

It's a sad song... Nyahahahah...

I've got a day and a reason

Why I should not believe in..anything, anymore

What's this for?

My time well spent

I've got all these memories that I cannot believe in

Cause I don't know where I've been all these years

All these years

And do you know this reason

I hope that you can see it cause I will not give up

And we all know what you've done again

I can see right through you

You're making your way over again..again

Two days after leaving and I don't have a reason to keep you from being here

I don't steer these thoughts away

I know that you know this but I could never get you to believe all my fears

Is this your clear?

I think so

And do you know this reason

I hope that you can see it cause I will not give up

And we all know what you've done again

I can see right through you

You're making your way over again..again..again..and again

And do you know this reason?

I hope that you can see it cause I will not give up

And we all know what you've done again

I can see right through you

You're making your way over again..again..again

And do you know this reason?

I hope that you can see it.

Cause I will not give up and we all know what you've done again

I can see right through you

You're making your way over again..

(end)

Relativity...

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A Poem For Them.. (More of a Story... I Guess)

Another poem that came out of my sick mind. But bear in mind that I'm not a poet. So you wouldn't find fancy words and some figures of speech like that of the Ni-Nice Guy.. Anyway... This poem I dedicate to my classmates, who one way or another touched my life. Anyway, the rest are in the poem... or story.. just read it .^^ Enjoy.

First day of High School,
I still could remember...
I pretended to be cool...
Looked for girls I could bother.

But before I go on I must tell you,
Making lines rhyme is hard for me to do.
So the next lines will not rhyme,
Coz I really have a few time.

At the first years of High School
I didn't really take our bonding seriously.
Everyday in school was like
Eight hours of isolation from games.
Sophomore year, new people came,
People whom I thought wouldn't touch my life.
There, I was, doing my S.O.P.
Wake up, school, T.V. Bed...

But as I schooled a bit longer,
I felt something funny.
When I go home,
I feel something missing in me.
But I played and played,
Thinking t'was the solution.
Nothing happened.
Still I felt that very odd feeling.

Junior Year, some people left,
And a few people came.
T'was only in this year that I knew
The solution to that odd feeling.
And that solution is my classmates.
Everytime I go to school I feel complete.
And that odd feeling subsides
When I see you my dear classmates.

Senior year, again some people left,
No one was added.
A lot of us were psyched to graduate,
That includes moi.
Finally four more years until we are free!
We practiced for contests,
Hoping to finally get out of our losing streak,
But as we do we didn't notice something building...

Our bonding kept growing stronger.
Now 'tis less than a month 'till we all graduate.
We will then go our separate ways.
No more posing for pictures,
No more cramming
Although I still would do much of the latter in college,
Things will never be the same.
But that's just the way it is...

To my classmates, thank you dears
It's been a pleasure,
Spendin' all these four years with you.
No one else could've made these years
As great as it is.
You are irreplaceable,
And I just couldn't describe
How much I love you!

I will never forget the times we had together.
Our late in the evening bondings
Making group projects, our outings,
Practices and many, many, many more!

I will never forget all these four years.
The years I fell in love,
Got heartbroken,
Stood up once more.
Experienced my best Valentines,
And all these I woulnt have experienced
If it weren't for you.

I love you guys!
And I will miss you...
I will end this by including
The phrases that we have loved saying:
As we go on... we'll remember
All the times we've been together.
As our lives change... come whatever.
We will still be friends forever.

Yehey!

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A Poem For Her...

Leave it alone.. It's my first poem.. No let me rephrase that.. It's my first post that's a poem.. :P

Before anything else,

I want to say that I'm not obsessed,
Or so nearly depressed.
Please hear what I have to say
Because everyday, I don't feel this way.
The truth is I've never felt this before
And I surely like to feel it some more.

I know this might be absurd,
But we rarely speak a word.
What I can do is just to stare.
Looking at you, I just can’t bear.
This might seem not true
But I just couldn’t stop thinking of you.

You are my first thought in the morning;
And I continue thinking of you till evening.
How I wish we could do things together
Like watch a movie or at least drink water.
There are things that I want to tell you
But talking to you I just can’t do.

Sometimes you might see me singing.
Songs help me express what I’m feeling.
All these are what I feel
And I assure you that all these are real.